Shuttle from the Airport

OK, Mrs. Ray's back. She had asked me to pick her up at the airport. Seems the last leg of her trip was delayed SIX (6) HOURS (as in more than five hours!). The actual flight? 1 hour 40 minutes. Thank you Airport Snow.

The first thing she told me was she bought new luggage on this trip, so I could keep the whole set of luggage we had shared for the last five years. The she talked about her grandson, and the house back east. Some other stuff about her family. You know, it seems to me she was having the kind of conversation you'd have with a good friend who came to the airport to pick you up. But to me, I was still expecting my wife!! Later she asked me why I was so quiet and moody. (didn't have supper with her, even though she was buying).

Correct or incorrect, I actually went to the airport hoping to pick up someone that resembled my wife. Only, the person who came to the baggage area was just some friend I was helping out. This is not the first time she's acted with what might be a "friend" attitude, but to me it was soooo strange, because it was the person I still see as my WIFE talking and acting like someone else. She didn't get it, yet I'm torn up inside. This is a real heart breaker.

As for the Cat (see Free Fall #3), nothing has been determined.

I guess this is almost coherent, but it just tears me up. Mrs. Ray seems to already be settled in the unmarried mode, and she treats her ex as some friend. This is something I cannot do if we reach the final breaking point. I am still working and praying that Mrs. Ray and I will find common ground and rebuild our marriage. But, should she depart from her promises of six years ago, I cannot abide ever dealing with her again. For my own mind, and heart, I will need to completely "clean her out of my heart". This is not fun. I do not want to do it to someone as precious to me as my wife.

I hope I can maintain an even keel for the next few days, till we see the condition of the cat.