Surprise Supper

Sunday, Mrs. Ray meant to get an Outlook file off her old computer to move to her new one. Forgot. I tried emailing it, but her Outlook managed to strip such files from incoming mail. (Thanks, Microsoft! 8p )
I emailed Mrs. Ray to say I could bring the file over on a thumb drive sometime. Her reply was "Would you like supper tonight?" Well, I did. Gave up my own Crockpot BBQ pork ribs. I have my priorities!
I did the computer thing & had supper. We didn't really have any particular stuff to talk about (having only 24 hours before covered some heavy ground). But the cuddling turned to some kisses. Both of us, I think wanted more, but knew when to stop.

T h i s   J u s t   I n  . . . 

As I was writing this, Mrs. Ray called me. After I left, she had a few errands to run. She got home to find a message from me on her answer machine - I left the thumb drive at her place. She called to tell me she got the message. But then, voice beginning to waver, said she almost came over to the house tonight (unannounced). "Why?" I probed.
"Because part of me misses you, and part of me wants to move on." she said with an unsteady voice.
Her feelings came out in more conversation. She understood this separation stuff was terribly hard on both of us. (I agreed.) She does have many issues about me that need to be cleared up. (I also think she is getting a better understanding of what she might be leaving behind.) I told Mrs. Ray I have come across some ideas - programs, ideas, books, etc. that might be useful, but I did want to clear them through the counselor first. She asked "When will that be?", but I kept her guessing on that. Because of the recently surfacing emotions, I suggested that neither of us make any effort to contact each other for 24 hours. I will be seeing our counselor tomorrow.
Reader, please don't think I feel victorious. First, the show ain't over. Second, I have put this whole business to God. I always ask God to give me His complete and Holy wisdom in healing a hurting marriage and hurting wife. (I admit that if I tried to work this out myself, I'd really mess things up!) There is no victory for me, rather for God's love and design of marriage. I'll post tomorrow and late the goings on. Looks like this might be an important few days. Keep your prayer lines open!