Crying Out Loud

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I really felt convicted to ask Mrs. Ray to go to the same church (our "regular" one). Her support/friends are different than mine, so they wouldn't cross paths all that much. So this morning, I popped the question, and Mrs. Ray said "no" out of hand. She said she'd go to another nearby church of the same color.

Well, I went to our church. Because my emotions were so high, I could not stay past the usual prayer session we have. I had even asked another person ahead of time to pray with me & explained I probably wouldn't be able to talk when the time came. Well, instead of going to the front, I went out the back. I knew if I went to the front I'd start bawling out loud, which would certainly cause a bit of a disturbance, even more than usual for this color of church!

I cried (loudly) all the way home. It seemed that Mrs. Ray was out, so I went right to my bedroom for a solid crying/prayer session of my own. Later I realized that Mrs. Ray had not left, and she heard me. Not that I'm embarrassed, but, geez, I certainly don't want her to take that as an excuse to move out now!

Although I won't lift a finger or spend a penny on the divorce proceedings or helping her move out, I'll gladly help out with the big inventory we need to do. I've already checked the forms as to what they need, and I'm starting the Big List.

My prayers have not changed: I need to find out what's in me that has driven her away, and I ask God to touch her heart so she may reconsider this extreme action.

Tonight's Amazing Race night. We'll see what happens.