Parting ways. Well, in a way...

It’s Thursday night. Tomorrow Mrs. Ray will begin the move to her new apartment. It’s our last night to stay in the same house together after over six years. I asked Mrs. Ray to sit with me on the couch and chat for a bit. The day was done, so we moved to the living room for a talk.

I opened with “Thank you”. (Answered with a smile.) I mentioned how the intense self examination I had been going through has helped me to better understand myself. I (again) apologized for one of the Final Incidents, leaving her in the parking lot of a drug store. (No – her car was in the lot, but I was going to take her for dinner. Beyond this note, don’t wreck the current story.) We chatted of good times, of bad times.

She began talking about how in the last few years things began building up inside her. She tried to deal with them, but then the issues just got too large and out of hand. Mrs. Ray mentioned the sex issue here. I told her I was devastated when I found out her true feelings. I told her I never ever wanted to take advantage of her.

I promised Mrs. Ray that I would not go about "painting" her in a bad light. She was still shocked that I did return to the church that I said I did not want to go to.

I explained how I came around from NOT WANTING TO HELP IN MY OWN DIVORCE to helping her move out, and even promising to help her with the rent. We both agreed that we still needed to be on good terms, even after Mrs. Ray makes her planned move out of state.

We spoke softly of some other things, and overall I think the time was very valuable to both of us. We ended with a hug and a kiss or two.

I had prayed intensely just before this time, asking God to fill me with His spirit, and not allow me to say anything that would mess things up (again). God did answer this prayer! My desire has not changed. I pray that Mrs. Ray would see me worthy as her husband under God’s grace and love. I am not giving up on this. I am in constant prayer, and keep other prayer partners updated. I cannot see that we should break a marriage that both of us agreed at one time was definitely of God.

We both are at peace now. (I, as much as I can be, since my wife is moving out!) I will have another prayer time in a few minutes when I go to bed. I love Mrs. Ray still. I wish we could continue together as Husband and Wife.